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Awak.

2012-02-17T10:14:00.001+08:00

"Where'd you go?

I miss you so.

Seems like it's been forever.

That you've been gone."

Hmhm. . . Bila dah simpan benda ni lama-lama, rasa macam dah tak tahan nak simpan lagi. Mungkin dah tiba masa untuk saya luahkan kat dia, tapi tatau cemana. Jadi kalau dia baca post kali ni, dia tahu la. Kalau tak, tak lah maknanya.

Sebenarnya, dah lama saya macam terasa dengan awak. Ntah kenapa. Tapi saya cuba untuk faham keadaan awak, cuba fikir positif, cuba untuk tidak kisah sangat apa yang awak buat saya sampai rasa macam nie. Semenjak awak dah kerja, kita macam dah jauh en? Ntahlah kenapa susah sangat kita nak spend time together sekarang. Saya cuba untuk faham keadaan awak yang sibuk dengan kerja, tapi . . .

Tapi . . . Susah sangat ke awak nak contact saya? Kalau saya text awak, kenapa susah sangat awak nak reply? Kalau saya call awak, kenapa dah balik kerja awak tak call saya balik? Takpadahal sampai empat ke lima missed call ada en? Dulu kita selalu otp lama-lama. Sekarang nak tunggu awak call saya ntah bila en.

Sorryla. Kadang-kadang sampai saya contact partner awak nak tahu awak kerja pukul berapa, cuti ke, awak kat mana sekarang. Sebab apa auw, sebab awak tak respond langsung kalau saya text awak. Nasib baik partner awak tahu. Kalau tak memang saya tak tahu langsung. Ada sekali tu sampai saya pergi tanya cikgu driving. Ntah kenapa awak berubah sampai macam ni. Sedih tahu tak.

Sorryla. Tapi saya tak tahu cemana nak bagitahu awak face-to-face. Awak tahu en awak the only bestie yang saya sanggup buat macam-macam. Tapi . . . Tahlah. Awak, sorry kalau saya mungkir janji kita yang “nothing can separate us apart, except for death.” Saya cuba untuk jaga janji tu. Tapi kalau awak pun dah cemnie, tak silap hari bulan, ada juga yang ganti tempat awak nanti.

Sorryla kalau saya touching lebih-lebih dengan awak. Tapi nanti kalau saya dah takda, janganlah baru nanti awak nak cari saya auw. Ntah-ntah time tu saya dah ada dalam kubur baru awak nak sedar yang awak dah jauh daripada saya. Bukan maksud saya nak menagih simpati ke apa, tapi tataulah.

Malam tu, malam birthday saya, masa tunggu parents awak, benda yang saya harap sangat time tu, Ibu dan Ayah awak datang lambat lagi. Saya nak spend time lama lagi dengan awak. Tapi awak duduk sibuk cerita pasal tempat kerja awak. Tapi dalam diam, malam-malam tu, saya menangis dalam diam sebelah awak. Saya tahu awak tak perasan. Tapi janganlah ingat saya menangis saja-saja.

Seriously saya rasa saya macam dah jauh sangat daripada awak.Tapi sekarang saya memang takkan bagitahu apa-apa. Biarlah awak perasan sendiri. Mungkin lebih baik saya mendiamkan diri je.

Forever: now and until the end, you are, and always will be, my best friend. You're there through the tears, the pain, and joys, the good, the bad, and everything in-between. For all the times I never said the things I should have, I thank you for all the times you understood.I always knew looking back at the tears would make me laugh, but I never thought that looking back at the laughs would make me cry. Your real friends aren't the ones you spend the most time with, but the ones you share the most memories with. 100 memories, 200 jokes, 300 great times, 400 secrets, 1 reason: best friends! I can't help but sit here and think about all the stupid stuff we have done together. I wouldn't want to be stupid with anyone else.

Friends. A simple word isn't it? It's uttered everyday to almost every person imaginable. Who are your friends? I used to think that friends were the people that you could laugh and talk to. Now I know that friends aren't that, they're the people that touch your hearts. You could spend hours with them doing nothing at all and it can be the best time of your life, just because it was with them. They're the people you can share your secrets with, cry with, laugh with, and just have fun with. They don't judge you or make you change. They accept you exactly as you are. They look at you and they see a great person, one they love spending time with. You all share something in common and are tied together by memories, tears, laughs, and smiles. You're tied together by love for the other. Friendship is the strangest but greatest thin in the world. I find my time with my friends, the best times of my life. My friends are my heart, my soul, my fun, my laughter, tears, love and my life.

"Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, you know where you stand."

LAWAK =D

2012-02-16T15:42:00.004+08:00

Ikah : Syah. Caya tak. Nanti bila kita dah besar, kita rasa benda-benda ni semua lawak je. Macam benda bodoh je. Sekarang ni memang ah en. Tapi seriously oh nanti kita akan rasa lawak gila.

Syah : oh ea? Hahah ye kut.

Now : Seriously aku rasa lawak gila. Takyah tunggu dah besar. Sekarang je la en. Bila aku ingat balik. Haish. Lawak ah. Apa ni. Fuyoh. Aku pernah buat kerja bodoh la weyh. Seriously lawak gila.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA LAWAK AH. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA. LAWAK. MUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA =DD

Facts.

2012-02-16T09:25:00.000+08:00

They are just so true about me. Yeah =D

When the #Aquarius woman loves, she loves the same person for a very, very long time.
If an #Aquarius is really and truly in love with you, they will never lie to you.
#Aquarius don't beg, they will let you walk away.
#Aquarius has a big appetite.
People say #Aquarius are emotionally detached but with the right person they can be highly emotional.
#Aquarius women are faithful lovers so they get jealous easily and get very protective over their lovers.
#Aquarius women are very loyal.

Changing my mind?

2012-02-16T08:33:00.000+08:00

"Biarkan aku menjaga perasaan ini

~~Menjaga segenap cinta yang telah kau beri~~

~~Engkau pergi aku takkan pergi~~

~~Kau menjauh aku takkan jauh~~

Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu"

Hi. K. Actually I’m still thinking about what I’ve posted on my blog yesterday. About “Good Life”. Like seriously. Huh. Okay sebenarnya, cemnie. Biarlah outside kita ni, orang nampak kita happy sokmo. Biarlah orang nampak kita ni happy je, bahagia je. Tapi kena ingat, inside biar kita je yang tahu. Senyumlah. Smile je walaupun fake tapi seeloknya biarlah ikhlas. Kalau nak bagitahu orang lain apa kita rasa sebenarnya inside, bagitahu orang yang kita boleh percaya je. Pastu kalau dia nak percaya ke tak, up to him/her.

Okay. Hati manusia ni berubah-ubah oh. Semalam saya cakap macam betul-betul nak move on and let go je. Hahaha. Pastu malam tadi saya rasa macam nak stay plak. See. Ahhh hati manusia ni memang berubah-ubah. So aaahhh tak suka oh macam bertukar fikiran ke apa. Sekarang tataulah nak buat apa. Tapi sekarang ni saya macam banyak fikir. Fikir masa depan? Hahaha. Yeah. -,-

Tapi yang confirm, deep inside I still . . . Deep oh. Hahaha. Sebab itu cem susah nak buang, sebab deep sangat. Harhah. Heish. Susah oh. Ntah apa yang patut saya buat un saya tatau. Cemnie auw, dulu cem asik fakir pasal . . . Takda pula saya . . . pasal dia. Sekarang ni cem dah tak fikir sangat pasal . . . Ada pula saya . . . pasal dia. Huh. Kenapa ea? Huh . . . Ntahlah. Eh asal ntah saya rasa lawak. Harhahaha. Heish . . . K cukup. Kbye. =D

Good Life =D

2012-02-15T08:12:00.002+08:00

Hi !!!!! Basically, I am enjoying my holiday so much ! Especially with my girlfriends. We are just very awesome? Lol. May I say that? You know what we just love to do crazy things. Yeah~~~ As we grow up, we realize it become less important to have more friends and more important to have real ones. Aten, Sandria, Huda, Umaira, Fathiyah, Nadia and Syazana, thanks for being my bestfriends ! =D

And I am too busy loving the ones who love me and I don't have even a second to care anything about the ones who had leaved me, the ones who don't even care about me, the ones who had stopped loving me, the ones who are so . . . crap. I am too busy loving my family, friends, pets and for sure my life. You only live once. Make sure you let people know you love them.

The best teacher is Experience. He taught us fall, get up and stand up straight. And sometimes people choose to leave not because of selfish reasons, but they just know that things will get worse if they stay. No matter how hard is your life, just go on with it. After bad things, there will always good things waiting for you my dear. =)

It's easy to love someone who makes you happy, but to love them after they've hurt you is just so hard. I just realized this. And this is just so true. What is the main reason of loving someone who had hurt you freaking much before? There's no point because you only gonna get more hurt. So yes, here I am slowly stopping myself to stop loving you. =D This is actually what you and I want right? Stop loving each other. Yeah. So here I am. =D

Your first mistake was leaving me. Your second mistake was giving me the chance to realize I could live without you. It was actually not a mistake, but thank you so much for making me realize that I seriously had so much fun in my life now without you. Thank you so much. Thank you Allah for my awesome family, friends and everything. I just don't need any boy or lover or whatever it is now to make my life perfect ! Thank you so much ! Yeah ! =D This is the spirit. So single ladies, let's have fun baby !

Every failed relationship is an opportunity for self-growth and learning. So be thankful and move on. I'm moving on. No more waiting, no more hurt. If you wanted me, you could've had me, but you didn't. You blew your chance. Let go when you're hurting too much, give up when love isn't enough, & move on when things aren't like they were before. If you're important to them, they will always find a way to make time for you. No excuses, no lies and no broken promises. I'm not running away from you. I'm walking away slowly, and you just don't care enough to stop me.

But, to whoever you're, please take note of this. =D

"Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupku
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah."

Awak tetap akan menjadi kenangan terindah dalam hidup saya. Kenangan indah yang ntah bila akan pergi. Mungkin satu hari, apabila saya dah jumpa "true love" saya. =) Kbye.

My 'sweet' 14th of Feb. =D

2012-02-14T19:53:00.001+08:00

Harini satu lagi peristiwa yang bakal melekat diingatanku untuk jangka waktu yang lama. Last night en saya macam dream tah pape, so memang takleh nak tidur sangat sampai ke subuh. Lepas subuh un cem tak tidur terus. Last-last tertidur juga sampailah terjaga sebab Sandria text saya dalam pukul 9.00a.m.

Nak pendekkan cerita, harini, 14^th of Feb, selepas tiga hari saya accident, the first time ever saya ditahan polis trafik. Ya Allah. Ntahlah. Memang takleh nak berkata-kata sangat. Saya ditahan atas kesalahan melanggar lampu isyarat. Weyh, seriously saya tak perasan langsung lampu isyarat merah. Sebab time tu kawan-kawan semua tengah bising jerit-jerit dan gelak-gelak dalam kereta. Jadi saya pun hilang fokus.

Pastu polis trafik tu suruh saya ke tepi. Then saya stop ah. Mula-mula tu polis tu tengah otp. So ktorg tunggu dalam kereta kejap. Lepas dia habis cakap, buka tingkap ah. Dia minta IC ngn lesen saya. Mula-mula saya tanya apa salah ktorg encik. Dia marah saya weyh. Aduh. Cuak gila. Lepastu dengar je ah apa dia cakap.

Benda yang saya hanya mampu buat time tu jawab sikit-sikit apa yang dia tanya dan apa auw, menangis ! Hahaha. Lawak gila. Sorryla tapi saya seorang yang sangat senang untuk mengangis. I am a soft hearted kind of person. Ceyh. Tapi seriously saya nanges cem wow. Huda kata my tears laju gila time tu. Pastu polis tanya saya umur berapa, sekolah mana bagai. Jawab ah. Dalam hati dah cuak gila nak mati takut kena gantung lesen dan kena saman. Nanti memang kena ah pergi balai polis semua.

Pastu last-last memang time tu merayu-rayu minta maaf sambil nangis gila-gila. Hehehe :P Pastu polis tu macam dah mula cakap baik-baik maybe sebab kesian tengok budak ni nanges. Harha =P Dengan dia siap tegur my hands shaking gila. Haha. Pastu dia tanya auw saya kelas apa. Apa saya cem pelik apa ni ada ke polis tanya saya kelas apa time sekolah dulu. So jawab ah 5Perdana. Pastu, guess what?! Dia kata “Okay saya lepaskan awak sebab awak kelas Perdana.”

Ktorg macam aik pelik gila kitorg tak kena saman sebab kelas Perdana? Lawak kut. Saya cem ngah nanges lagi time tu. Pastu tengok name tag polis tu. Ohhh Ayah Nabilah Hasnol ke. Ya Allah bersyukur sangat-sangat lepas tu. Pastu polis siap tanya ni boleh tak drive balik dengan keadaan cemni. Memang sah takleh ah en. Sebab cem ngah takut, ngah nangeh, ngah nervous ngan tangan kaki semua memang shaking habis. Jadi Sandria replace me. Dia drive balik. Fuh. Lega.

Fuyohhh lega gila bila tak disaman dan dilepaskan oleh polis. Ya Allah. Memang ah. Hari yang sangat penat, emosi, happy, sedih dan best sangat ! Believe it or not, kalau kita buat baik dekat sesuatu atau seseorang, Allah akan bagi balasan baik dekat kita balik. Thank you Allah !

Just A dream.

2012-02-14T19:50:00.003+08:00

"I was thinkin about her
thinkin about me
thinkin about us
where we gunna be

open my eyes...

it was only just a dream."
"if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
and now theyre gone and you wish you could give them everything."

I am a good dreamer. Seriously I do. No one knows this except for this one guy. The one that I always tell about my dreams. Well, at least not now anymore but not so long ago.

Yeah ! Malam semalam dream benda like ntah lah. Like tah apa-apa kut? Malam semalam macam pukul 11.00p.m dah tidur rasanya. Pastu masa tengah tidur ter’dream’ satu cerita ini. Alkisahnya bermula begini, dalam dream tu, adalah, someone ni, yang boleh saya gelar sebagai kawan, kawan biasa, bukan special lagi dah sekarang ni. Hehe. Hah. Saya dream pasal dia.

Dalam dream tu, dia nak nikah auw. Saya tatau dia nak nikah dengan perempuan mana. Tapi sebelum dia nak pergi nikah, dia text saya. Text tu panjang gila. Tapi saya tak reply. Dia macam suruh saya datang juga time dia nak nikah yang lagi beberapa jam tu. Tapi saya tak nak dan takkan datang. Pastu salah seorang my ex-classmate jadi photographer event dia. So my ex-classmate tu call saya juga suruh datang. Cemnie “Woih. Datang ah weyh ! Dia cem nak sangat kau datang. Asal duh kau taknak datang?” Pastu saya cakap; “Heish kau ni cem tatau plak apa pernah jadi antara aku dengan dia dulu en. Taknak ah.” Pastu saya end call.

Next, few minutes later, bestfriend orang lelaki (yang nak nikah ni ah) ni lak call saya. Bestfriend dia, my bestfriend juga. “Weyh datang ah please weyh?” Pastu jawapan yang sama saya memang takkan pergi. Hello~~~ Siapa je nak pergi tengok orang yang kau . . . nikah dengan orang lain en? *Lek Syh, dream je okay.*

Pastu, dalam dream tu, saya cem received call lagi. Kali ni, saya dapat news mengatakan si dia meninggal. “Whattt?” Cem terkejut gila. The same day as dia nikah tu ah. Akhirnya saya datang juga rumah dia masa nak pengebumian. Dalam dream tu saya cem nangeh gila-gila. Sebab menyesal tak buat permintaan terakhir dia. Pastu tanamlah sekujur(huh ?.?) badan yang pernah bergelar seorang sahabat yang lebih daripada sahabat biasa ke dalam liang lahat.

Pastu dream tu habis. Then saya terbangun. Tengok jam kat handpone baru pukul 2.06a.m. Still shock dengan dream tu. Saya bangun cem nak tenang en diri. Tapi akhirnya, saya menangis sorg-sorg lepas terjaga daripada tidur. Ntah mengapa diri ni menangis sedangkan itu hanya mimpi dan mainan tidur. Mungkin ada dua sebablah. Sebab dalam dream tu dia nikah ngan orang lain dan sebab kedua sebab saya tak buat apa dia minta sebelum dia meninggal dan sebab saya tak sempat nak minta maaf daripada dia buat kali yang terakhir.

Well, itu semua dream je. Tapi Ummi kata kalau kita dream orang tu meninggal, dalam dunia ni umur dia panjang. Apa-apa pun, semoga dia mendapat future wife yang terbaik dan bahagia selalu dan semoga panjang umur. =D

Malas vs Lupa.

2012-02-13T10:28:00.000+08:00

Hi ! Fuh lately ni rasa macam dah jarang nak post pape. Sanye banyak gila benda nak post. Dalam mind ada banyak gila nak cerita. Tapi bila dah kumpul banyak-banyak, dia jadi macam jam. So lupa nak cerita apa and nak post apa. So macam ah malas ah. Tapi lately ni memang banyak cerita best yang berlaku dalam hidup ana. Kenangan suka dan duka. Seronok je. Ahhh kkk. Nanti kalau dah rasa nak post pape, orang type lagi. Kbye. =D

You.

2012-02-10T10:56:00.012+08:00

"There has been a long time. The wind blows to me. Carries a feel of missing someone . That every single second the times keep running , very far from me. I start feeling suffer. And now i know , then realize . Missing somebody will make me freaking hurt . Especially missing the one i love much . The one that i always want to be with forever . I wish u can be by my side any single thing we do. Until the end of my time is to spend with you."

Sayang, I am tired of missing you. I am tired of thinking about you. I think about you every single day. My mind just can't stop thinking about you. My heart just don't wanna let you go. But the worse is when I know you already had someone else even as a friend. I ... I ... Don't know what to do . . . I am trying to just let it be. Let time heals a broken heart. But, why is it so hard for me to stop loving you? Just why? Why? It is not loving you what makes me tired, but wondering will you be mine again? Do you miss me like I do? Do you still remember about me? Well, I don't think so. Because I can feel it in my heart that you hate me so much especially during my birthday. I can't even hear your name. There were three persons asked me whether you still remember my birthday or not, the only thing that I can do was smiling. Inside, I was dying, I don't know and I don't think so you still remember. But at the end of the day, at 11.09p.m you texted me with only three words. "happy birthday. Gnite;)" Ahhh sokay. I know you tengah bahagia with someone else. Semoga bahagia dengan si dia ya. And. I am tired tough. Sometimes I just can't stop myself from . . . I don't know. Aisyah, please be more patient. Strong. That is what you actually need. Strong babe ! Always smile !

"When i choose right, why it goes left. When i do the right things, why it goes wrong . When i try to enter your life, why it drives me to an exit. When i try to create smiles, why it gives me pain. I just want to know why there are too much why’s.. But now, all i can do is carrying all these burdens by myself . I realize I’m becoming weak. Being a loser. And I’m glad I’m the only one who holds these worse. I think one person is just enough ."

My 18th birthday.

2012-02-10T10:51:00.002+08:00

THE BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT EVER !
THANK YOU SO MUCH GUYS.
SPEECHLESS.

Eighteen

2012-02-08T08:03:00.000+08:00

It's 8th of February, baby !
Let's have fun !
Yeahhh !

Rakan

2012-02-03T15:09:00.003+08:00

Kawan. Saya bersyukur sangat Allah mempertemukan saya dengan seorang hambaNya. Di samping saya tengah ada masalah sikit, saya memang akan share dengan Allah dahulu. Tapi, pada waktu yang sama, saya perlu kawan juga. So ada seorang kawan ni, I share my problems dengan dia. Dia banyak bagi saya semangat, dia banyak bantu saya yang memang saya rasa dengan kata-kata dia saya lebih kuat dekat dalam ni. From outside, saya memang mungkin nampak strong, tapi from inside siapa tahukan? So, seorang kawan ni banyak keluarkan hadith-hadith berkenaan. Sememangnya Islam dan Al-Quran ada jalan penyelesaian akan setiap masalah.

Jadi apa yang dia sampaikan, saya cuba praktikkan. Saya tanya dia banyak soalan berkenaan dengan masalah saya ni. Alhamdulillah kebanyakkan soalan yang saya tanya hampir menemui jawapan yang sebenar berdasarkan tafsir-tafsir Al-Quran dan hadith. Saya tahu dia mesti orang yang banyak membaca. Apa-apa pun, semoga kawan yang macam ni lah Allah berikan dekat kita yang dapat bimbing kita ke jalan yang lurus di dunia dan akhirat. Dia kata dia selalu berdoa kat Allah biar Allah bagi dia jumpa dengan seorang perempuan yang boleh buat dia sentiasa tersenyum. Dan dia kata mungkin dia dah jumpa tapi dia tatau sebab jodoh semua ditangan tuhan. Alhamdulillah lah dia dah jumpa apa yang dia nak. Saya lambat lagi. Few years may be. Tatau la. Tapi buat masa sekarang memang takkan ada feeling dekat siapa-siapa. Serik. Haha. Kalau ada pun. . . Hah . . . Takda orang lain kut selain . . . =D

Apa-apa pun, saya akan tetap terus kuat untuk menghadapi segala ujian hidup yang sedang diuji oleh Allah dan juga yang bakal diuji pada masa akan datang. InshaAllah. Oh ya. Kita hidup ini kena banyakkan berfikir. Kalau kita nak buat sesuatu, jangan ikut hati je. Sebab hati manusia ini berubah-ubah awak. Jadi, kita cuba guna akal fikiran yang dikurniakan dengan sebaik-baiknya ya. Kalau kita nak sesuatu, kita kena usaha. Walaupun susah, walaupun lama, teruskanlah berusaha. Dan selalulah kita ukirkan senyuman tidak kira pada sesiapa pun. Kerana senyuman itu indah, boleh menghilangkan duka, menggembirakan orang lain dan ianya juga merupakan salah satu sedekah yang tidak memerlukan wang. =D Assalamualaikum.

PS : Masalah ana satu je . Hahaha. Bukannya amende un. Hewhew ^^'

Sad stories in a night. :'(

2012-02-03T10:58:00.020+08:00

Last night was so sad. Harhaha :'( Went out for dinner with the girlfriends. Basically, sampai tempat makan tu about 10.++p.m kut. Ada sebab-sebab yang menyakitkan kenapa lambat. Antaranya, ada lah a girl ni, seriously I am so fucking damn fed up with your perangai. Apa masalahnya nak off phone? Sampai ktorg pergi rumah dia, dia memang buat tatau je. Seriously, that was so so so fucking damn sick. I was so upset, mad, annoyed, frustrated with her. Why you always act like that my dear? Just why? Kenapa suka buat orang marah? K fine. Lepas bagi salam beberapa kali, dia taknak keluar, kitorg pun pergi. I drove to Aten's house. Tepat-tepat je sampai Aten's place Aten call. Wahhh magic. K then p amik Izzati.

Next, macam biasa kalau ana keluar kalau phone tak vibrate parents call at least four times memang tak sah. So sampai-sampai je, Fir dah call. Ahhh. Fine. Cakap lah. Then tengah cakap ngan Fir, incoming call from Ayah. So end Fir, answer Ayah. Ya Allah. K dah cakap-cakap, dah lah kat situ line Maxis takda sangat auw. Then around kul 11p.m phone vibrate lagi. Alamak. Ummi lak call. Cis. Answer lah call tu. Tetttt kena marah sebab tak balik lagi. Yela dah malam, keluar rumah daripada pukul 8.50p.m cemtu. Pastu tengok dah ada five missed calls from my parents. Dalam mind ni; "Balik ni memang die ah kena marah. Ahhhh." Bukan xnak answer auw, memang takda line langsung, so I just received message from Maxis yang ada five missed calls tu.

Then, terus p bayar then hantar dorg balik. Memang speed habis ah. First time ana speed 100km/h malam-malam weyh. Nervous je. Hahaha. K sampai rumah terus naik bilik. Pastu Fir panggil. "Syah, p masuk bilik Ummi, Ummi ngn Ayah panggil." Hahahah. Dah nervous gila. Pastu kenala ceramah semua, memanglah tak kena marah, sebab dah besar en, pandai-pandailah fikir. Tapi. "Okay, no more going out during the nights. Unless for celebration. Itu pun Ayah yang akan bawa." Okay fine. Haha. Maybe time tu dorg tengah hot, so takpe, I just answered "Ahh okay. :'(" Wat muka sedih sikit. Weyh ! AHhhhhh Takpela tunggu parents chill dulu. I know teens nowadays cannot be trusted anymore. I mean not all lah. But, I just went out with my girlfriends. Tak pernah pun keluar dengan mana-mana boys yang tah pape. Kecuali, once, dengan dia, dekat KFC. Itu un sekali je weyh. Tu un sebab I really miss that boy time tu. Tu first and the last. I know lepas ni dah takda dah. :'(

Oh yeah. Before p dinner, I tried to call *r A**ha but dia xanswer my call. Tatau la. Dia marah ke dengan saya. Ktorg sebelum ni pernah gaduh sekali. Kiranya ni kali keduala. Time tu orang ingat lagi lepas balik open house rumah Huda. Lama betul nak pujuk dia. A week juga dia touching dengan ana. Huh. Takpela. Ceyh tapi ana kalau touching ngn someone 5mins je. Harhaha. So buat masa sekarang ni, saya patut mendiamkan diri jela sampai dia betul-betul chill. Minta maafla kawan. Saya dah buat anda marah. Tapi, awak sebenarnya yang dah berubah. Takpela. Kalau rasa dah xnk cakap ngan saya lagi, semoga berjaya, dan bla3 la ea. Saya memang dah tak larat nak main pujuk-pujuk sekarang. Sebab diri saya sendiri sekarang un saya yang pujuk sendiri auw. Ahhh. K done pasal *r A**ha. Sedih en? Huh Bila kawan touching ngn kita lama-lama.

Next Sandria pula. Wahhh sedih gila. I ingat en apa dia sebab dia terus IM I cakap "ehhh kau pun sama ea." I wonder juga asal dia tiba-tiba cakap cemtu. Disebabkan my FB memang ngah rosak cem hapeje en, ktorg continue dekat YM. Status dia cem okay then I tanya why. I cem main-main je layan dia kat YM. Pastu dia tak reply, I off. Then 12.++a.m cemtu baru I baca blog dia. Weyh. I menyesal gila tak tanya dia betul-betul. Baca blog dia un boleh buat I nangeh. Ahhhh. Seriously, I know it must be so hurt. Tapi peoples come and go. Tapi, ntahlah. Peoples change. I betul-betul rasa bersalah when a friend needs me and I did't be there for him/her. Sandria, I am so sorry. Seriously I tatau time tu apa you rasa lepas baca your blog baru I tahu. :'( Then before I tidur I text dia. I hope she's doing fine now.

Next, the feeling of ****ing someone come again. Bloody hurts. Huh. I seriously do not know what else to do. I just can't do anything now. I can't. So bila feeling yang menyakitkan datang, ana cuba untuk bersabar, banyak-banyakkan bersabar, cuba untuk melupakan tentang feeling tu, cuba tahan selagi boleh, I must ! Mesti ! Jadi apa yang ana paksa cakap ialah; "You must be patient ! Patient ! Slowly okay. Separate your heart with him. You must. MUST!!!!!!!". Tapi itu tidaklah semudah yang diperkatakan. Sometimes, boleh jadi tak tidur sebab feeling ni. Tahla. It hurtsssssss~~~~ :'( Sedih oh. Hmmhm :/ Susah. K la. Dah. Kbye. :'(

Cycling and Toys

2012-02-02T08:58:00.010+08:00

Morning ! Yeah~~~ Okay. Semalam Huda, Nadia, Izzati and I pergi cycling. Fuh. Cem biasa, memang selalu akan tak on time sebab masing-masing nak bangun lambat je. Almaklumlah, budak baru bersara daripada sekolah en. So, tiada sebab yang boleh menghalang kami daripada bangun pagi lambat unless awak tak bangun solat subuh tu memang cari pasallah en. Huh.

So janji 8.30a.m kat depan sekolah. Ye ye ye je ada orang nak jumpa pukul 7.45a.m. Hahaha. Batang hidung korg dah pukul 8.50a.m pun tak nampak kayh. So lepas semua dah sampai ktorg duduk jap fikir nak p breakfast mana. Fikir punya fikir, DE memang taknak ah. Takkan pergi dah kut. So ktorg start cycle p kat kawasan DE gak. Hahaha. Pastu decide punya decide, last-last ktorg p cycle g section 18. hewhew ^^'

Ana sangatlah tidak tahu jalan short cut nak ke 18 ni. Mereka-mereka un sama. Jadi tawakal je la dan akhirnya tiba juga kat Bistro 18 tu. Hahaha. Makan sampai pukul 11a.m cemtu.

Pastu ktorg tatau nak buat apa. Since semua orang dah pakai sport shoes and socks, ingat nak p main bowling. Alaaa dah tengok-tengok cem nak semua sakit perut. Apahal ntah. Ana pun sakit perut sampai ke petang. Pagi tu tidak lagi. Yang kena Huda ngn Izzati je. So we decided to cycle somewhere. Tetttt tengok-tengok dorg ni p stop dekat one shop aka my one shop. Harhaha.

We spent like an hour in that shop just at the toys corner. Seriously. Ktorg beli mainan. Hahahha. Cis. Baru je bersara dah nak kembali ke arah permulaan hidup, di mana kami mahu meng-joinkan diri ke alam kanak-kanak ribena di Tadika-tadika berdekatan. LOL.

So, ana memang nak belajar masak un sebelum ni, tapi, akan sifat diri yang sangat pemalas nak p dapur, rajin time lapar je. Hehe. So dah malas ingat nak belilah mainan masak-masak. Hahahah. Lastly, memang orang beli un. Huhhh. Cem hapeje. Takpela. To my future daughther; "Mama dah beli toys untuk sayang." Hahahaha. To my future son, "Mama dah ada pistol air untuk boy. Nanti kita main sama-sama dengan Ayah okay." Hahahahha. Xdla. Well, nanti my future son kena jadi baik, soleh, handsome dan macam-macam lagi macam Ayah dia. So, kita kena cari partner untuk seumur hidup dengan sebaik mungkin. Sebab our kids akan jadi macam their parents juga. Lol. Apa kena mengena ni?

Dahdah. Back to the topic Syah. Hah. Then dekat cashier tu, pergh sibuk gila cachier tu. Dia cem tak puas hati ktorg beli mainan banyak-banyak. Bak kata Cik Huda, "Eleyh kakak tu jealous lertuw ktorg dapat beli, kakak dapat susun-susun je." Hahaha. Aah, memang dia jealous un. Ahhhh lantak ah dia. Pastu balik my house. Otw balik, ahhh panas gila weyh. Ye ah tengahari en. 12.++p.m dah time tu. Haih.

Then sampai je rumah ana, "AIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR". Aduh penat dan haus gila dan panas gila. K fine. Lepas tu.Kitorg rest-rest jap. Pastu apa lagi dah dapat energy en, startlah our game. Buka semua toys yang ktorg beli. Benda paling best of courselah the pistol air. Ktorg main tembak-tembak dalam bilik ana. Nasib baik time tu takda sapa kecuali kakak. Habis basah kuyup my room. Banjir. Hahha. Xdla.

Tapi best gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa weyh. Best !!! Hahahha seriously tak pernah buat perangai cemtu, kalau Ummi Ayah tahu memang sah dah kena marah. Apa la g main air dalam bilik. Haha lepas semua dah penat melayan kerenah diri dan kawan-kawan yang disayangi, ktorg un turun lunch. Lepas lunch, naik solat. Pastu dah semua tertidur sampai pukul 5p.m. Dah asar. Ahhh I told you ktorg penat gila main semalam. Hahaha. Izzati lagi ah, lepas lunch terus tidur. Penat sangat lerwtue. Yeah. Pastu 5.30p.m cemtu dorg un cycle balik rumah. THE END.

Guys, thanks for the day. Yeah. Banyak lagi plan lepas nie. The starting of February was good. Alhamdulillah. =D Thanks Allah for the awesome family member and friends.

Jengjengjeng : Should I start it first? I just don't wanna lose a good friend like *R A**ha. Seriously. Even though *R A**ha had changed a bit, I just need to say sorry for all my wrong doing towards *R A**ha. But I don't want to talk to *R A**ha until *R A**ha realized what is actually happening between us. Huh. Friend. Why la you? I seriously do not know what else to do to save our friendship. Seriously. Should I start it first by saying sorry? But I'm not the one who is changed, huh. May be for few days or weeks, just let it be. If *R A**ha still care about our friendship, *R A**ha is actually will make an effort to make things better. What about *R A**ha says the same thing? "Aisyah, if you think our friendship is important, please make an effort to say something to me." Huhhhh. I don't know what to do. Help me~~~ :/

Never had a dream come true

2012-02-01T21:44:00.004+08:00

Everybody's got something
They had to leave behind
One regret from yesterday
That just seems to grow with time
There's no use looking back, or wondering
How it could be now or might've been
All this I know
But still I can't find ways to let you go

Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you
No matter how hard I try and try
I just can't say good bye
No no no no

Quotes

2012-01-31T11:38:00.002+08:00

Morning ! So January gonna end by today and here it comes February. What so special about February? Hahaha. I'm turning eighteen baby ! Well, there's nothing much being eighteen and I'm kind of upset because what I really wanna do during my birthday will never ever happen. I is so sad. But it is okay. Life must go on.

Basically, what I really wanna talk here is about quotes. Quotes, they're just awesome to be read and bla3. :P

"If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it is yours. If it does not, it never was."

What it is actually the true meaning of the quote? What? The only thing that I understand about it is if the thing comes back, yes it is truly yours. And if it does not, just forget about it, you are just not meant for it.

Huh. What I really wanna say about the quote above is in the first place if you do love something or someone why you let it go? Just why? You don't you try to keep it, take care of it more, change something to be better or make things right or something? Make an effort. Why don't you? Well, that is my opinion. But it is actually depends on something and someone. Don't judge books by its cover. You need to know what it is actually happening to them and why they decided to choose that way/path. Get what I meant? But let's see what I've found out here.

"If you love somebody, Set her free ...Don't worry, she will come back."
"If you love somebody, Set her free ...If she ever comes back, ask her why."
"If you love somebody, Set her free ...If she doesn't comes back within some time forget her."
"If you love somebody, Set her free ...If she doesn't come back, continue to wait until she comes back ..."
"If you love somebody, Set her free ...* If she comes back, and if you love her still, set her free again,repeat *"
"If you love somebody, Set her free...If she loves you, the probability of her coming back is high,If she doesn't, your relation was improbable anyway."
"If you love somebody, Set her free...SHE'LL BE BACK!"
"If you love somebody set her free...instantaneously...and look for others simultaneously."
"If you love somebody set her free...If she comes back, her super ego is dominant. If she doesn't come, back her id is supreme. If she doesn't go, she must be crazy."
"If you love somebody set her free...If she comes back, it's a nightmare. If she doesn't, you must be dreaming."

Look at number five. LOL. Repeat again? Again? LMFAO. Hahahahha. Kbye. =D

Finger. :(

2012-01-30T20:47:00.000+08:00

Hi. Okay. Petang tadi orang yang tak bekerja cem saya ni biasalah duduk rumah je la en, lagi-lagi sebagai anak dara ni, bukannya elok sangat keluar rumah tak tentu pasal en. So Ummi nak masak rendang, so orang p lah tolong amik daun ni. Ahhh pendek kata jari saya dah masuk benda tajam. Tiga ! Bukan satu tapi tiga. So petang tadi pergilah klinik nak keluarkan benda tajam ni. Satu jam dalam bilik doktor. Sakit gila. Kena toreh jari nie. Allah je tahu cemana pedih. So After one hour yang berjaya keluar hanya dua. Lagi satu tak berjaya sebab betul-betul dalam daging dah. So doktor bagi apa ntah dia kata nantilah dia pandai-pandai keluar sendiri. Time kena toreh kat tiga tempat ni, darah tak berhenti keluar. Dahlah mula-mula tu doktor kata nurse jarum please. Okay, after few moments tu, nurse jarum lagi besar please. Aih saya dah cem alamak. Dahlah aku ni penakut pastu pagi tadi baru post pasal doktor semua en. Then memang dah 50mins cemtu takleh gak keluar yang last sekali tu, doktor panggil nurse suruh buat dressing kat my finger ni. Then fine pergi buat. Tiba-tiba doktor datang bawa jarum. Alamak. Asal lak nie. Kena injection. Pastu kena angkat lengan baju. Aduh dahlah baju ni cem tight sikit, last dia kata okay takpe I inject you kat punggung you. Hahaha. Saya dah cem, alamak cane nie dah lah lelaki doktor ni. Saya pandang nurse ngn ummi je time tu, haha. Pastu kena inject ahhhh even dah berjam kena still rasa sakit sampai sekarang. Pastu dah lah k bye. Sakit. Tapi, sakit ni saya tak nangeh. Power tak? Harha xdla. Tapi betullah. Physically injured is not hurt as heartache. Saya heartache cem nangeh gila-gila. Harha. Kbye. =)

Whoa !

2012-01-30T12:33:00.011+08:00

LMFAO !

I just love to get the chance to talk to my friends, read their blogs.

They're just . . . AWESOME.

Sandria, GOOD LUCK !!!!

And the best answer for the question "What to do when you're missing someone",

I guess it goes to Sandria's answer. :D

Engineering, Medic and Pharmacy.

2012-01-30T10:57:00.000+08:00

Benda-benda yang sedang bermain luas difikiran orang-orang yang kian membesar, yang semakin meningkat dewasa seperti saya, terutama rakan-rakan seperjuangan yang berumur 18 tahun pada 2012 ini. Ceyh. Masa depan? Awak nak jadi apa? Haih. Dulu time kecik-kecik bukan main nak jadi doktor lah, lawyer lah, engineer lah, architect lah. Sekarang? Saya memang masih memikirkannya lagi. Tapi yang saya nampak sekarang Engineering je oh. Ntahlah. Tak tahu nak pilih apa. Saya suka calculations, Physics, Addmath dengan Chemistry sikit. Biology? Harem bro. Tak suka.

Ummi dengan Ayah nak sangat Aisyah jadi doktor yang berjaya, yang sanggup selamatkan nyawa-nyawa manusia lain selagi termampu, Ummi dengan Ayah nak sangat Aisyah dapat ajar orang-orang yang dah nak meninggal mengucap dua kalimah syahadah kalau jadi doktor. Ummi dengan Ayah sanggup nak tanggung kos Aisyah belajar Medic dekat oversea walaupun tak dapat scholarship nanti. Siapa taknak belajar oversea en? Mana tahu dapat pergi belajar dekat Dublin, Ireland, UK ke. Huh. Tapi . . . Wahhh. Ummi Ayah, sorry, Aisyah betul-betul tak boleh nak jadi doktor. Aisyah tak minat. Minat tu boleh kut letak nombor dua, yang pertama sebab saya ni penakut. Heehee. Saya memang tak boleh nak tengok blood, luka, tulang patah ke apa semua memang tak boleh. Seriously. Aduh. Lemah semangat betul. So medik bukanlah pilihan saya langsung.

Next, pharmacy.. Ayah suruh amik pharmacy. Haihhh. Cem biasa. Susah juga jadi anak yang suka bagi alasan ni. "Alaaa Ayah. Bukan taknak, tapi Chemistry Aisyah tu la yahhh. Ntah." Ceyh alasan je kerja. Jadi saya sendiri tatau nak pilih apa. Nak oh amik architecture tapi saya tak amik LK time SPM. So, susah. Jadi sekarang ni saya un tatau nak buat apa. Harha. Kbye. :)

Missing?

2012-01-30T10:02:00.011+08:00

Hello. Good Morning. Lets start our day with smiles even though I've started my day with tears. That's so sad right. But sokay. I've decided to give up on something. It hurts me. I've to throw it away. I'll try my best. I will. I can. I must believe to myself. There’s a point in life where you get tired of chasing everyone, and trying to fix things, but you’ve gotta do what’s right for you.

Wahhh. Yes, I do love to read the posts posted by my friends on their blogs. Thanks for opening the blogs to public you guys ! Finally. Huhhh. Okay. I think I wanna answer one of the questions asked by one of my friends. What to do when you're missing someone. Well, okay I admit actually I don't really have the answer but here I'm gonna give some of my opinions.

I do love someone. I do always missing the someone. Always. Missing someone is a part of loving them. If you’re never apart, you’ll never really know how strong your love is. So if before this whenever I miss the someone, I'll just let the someone knows. But now, I just can't easily say; "Awak, I miss you." I can't. Things are different now. So, if you're in relationship with someone, and you're missing him/her, just say it out to him/her. Don't keep it by yourself. Let them know and they will realized how much you love them. Actually they're missing you too. Probably they'll say "Awww, sayang I miss you too." Lol. Harha. Yeah.

Next, if you're not in relationship with the girl or the boy that you love, huh, kind of hard just like what I'm having now. Hmhmhm. Nothing much you can do because you know you just can't easily say the words to him. It hurts :( . I know. I feel it, hunny. So what I do is I try to write it out somewhere. Just write it out whatever you really wanna say to him/her, then you read it again, then throw the paper or just keep it. Heehee. For me I write it on my diary. elelelyh :P And I'll never throw it away once I've done writing. You don't know whether the person that you've been missing all day is missing you too or not. So . . . Tah. Hahaha. For the person that I've been missing for weeks and it's gonna be a month just a day before my birthday, I miss you so muchhh and I know you don't even think about me or miss me. The feeling is so bloody hurt. But now I'm trying to not care about it anymore.Tell me you miss me, tell me you care. Tell me if I need you, would you be there? Still remember what you've said before ? Whenever I need you, will you be there for me? Nope, right? Yeah, I know. :(

Next, the hardest thing you'll ever have to do is seeing the one you love, loving someone else. Have you ever feel this kind of situation? Huh. To be honest, even though I never seeing him loving someone else yet, well not yet, but may be later I'll see it but seeing him to communicate with other girls even only with his friends is also . . . hurt, right? Hahaha. yeah. -,- I should throw away that kind of jealousy from now. Must ! :/ I saw it like, yesterday morning? Yeah. Whenever I try to have a conversation with him, just right after that what I'll get is "I gtg, bye." or "I ada kerja, gtg. Bye" or "I nak hantar orang g sekolah. Bye" or "I nak mandi. Bye." or "Jum tdo, nites." or "I takda credit, lupa nak top up. Sorry. Bye". Hahaha. That kind of answers. I am so fucking damn bored with that. So I've decided to not contact him unless it is really important or . . . Bla3. Well, lagi pun en, I will do what he asked me to do before which is to not disturb him and his heart. Hi, you. I will. No worries, okay. But if I did, just slap me okay? Thanks. :x A real relationship has: fights, trust, faith, tears, pain, argument, patience, secrets, jealousy, and love. What we don't have there is only trust. Letting go isn't about giving up. It's about accepting the fact that there are things that just can't be. But; Every time I want to give up on you there’s always something inside telling me to just give it time.

"Untuk Cahayaku;
Tiada kata yang bisaku sampaikan selain maaf dan terima kasih;

Sudah memberikan arti di hidupku yang sempit ini;

Aku harus pergi;

Bukan meninggalkanmu;

Tapi hanya terlepas darimu;

Jika kamu yakin akanku;

Maka memang inilah jalan yang terbaik untuk dijalankan."

Next, Huda ! Hahahaha . Finally you can see the guy, finally you can hear his voice. I am so glad for that you know ! But then cannot kacau you dah lah pasal that guy? Alaaaa :'( Takda, nak kacau juga. Well, that is life. From hate change to like and soon to love. HAHAHAHAH. How lah. You hate him so much and now you can see and hear him? HAHAHHAHAH Funny. :)

Friends

2012-01-29T20:41:00.000+08:00

Fatin Nabilah : My bestie since I was 13 and untill now and I do hope our friendship will lasts forever. Nothing can separate us except for death. There's too much memories between us. Too much. The only friend that I'm brave enough to cry as hard as I can. I cried few times in front of her. We cried together, share everything together, we laugh, we get mad and yeah we just love to share lots of things. There's no one ever who can replace her. I repeat no one ! There's so much differences between us. Example like if I like A then she will likes B. Seriously. From what we love to do, what our favorite subjects, the type of boys that we like, about our family and everything. We are just like family. I know her family, she knows my family too. We trust each other. Almost all my problems I do share with her, she's just another of me. Awak, I love you so much and I'll never break my promise that day okay, I'll never leave you. Never, except for death. Nanti kita dah belajar jauh-jauh pun sama, awak je yang akan jadi bestfriend kita sampai bila-bila walaupun one day I know we will meet more peoples, but still they will never be the same. To my lovely sweetie Khairee, please take care of her. Don't ever touch her, take care of her feelings, trust each other, be loyal to your partner and yes I will always pray for your happiness, guys. :)

Nurulhuda Elynie : Hudaaannnnggg ! Huda, haih there's too much things to talk about her. She's just so caring, lovely, loves cats and animals, really take good care of her health, good runner. Hahaha. She has a very cute voice. Childish. Love to make jokes especially when with Nadia. Huda, Good Luck for everything. Remember, always pray to Allah. Usaha, tawakal. InshaAllah you can be a successful veterinar one day ! I trust you. Huda, thank you for everything. I get to know you since I was 14. Yes. 14. But Huda, I know you are very disciplined type of person. But please don't be so serious for small matters. Heehee:D Weyh, kita suka hang out dekat bilik awak. Besttt ! :) Sorry sebab suka conteng-conteng kat dinding bilik awak. Kita lukis-lukis semua. Jangan marah auw. Besttt sangat ! :)

Alessandria Barrie : Sandria ! Haha. The first time ever I saw her was 2007. She was so quiet till I get to know her better she is actually not that type of person. Her mouth sometimes just can't shut you know. Potpetpotpet je tahu and loves to make jokes. I don't know what so funny, but when she talks to Fathiyah, they just can't stop laughing. LOL. Sandria is so beautiful, tall and a nice girl. She's nice. Very nice. It just that sometimes, when she had her bad mood or PMS or whatever it is, it can be so frustrated to talk to her. Haha. Sorry Sandria. :P She loves animals and I do pray for her to be a successful veterinar just like Huda. Good Luck, Sandria ! Sandria, I know you do hate boyfriends, parents having sex all that but remember one day you will have it too. Harhahaha. (Sorry, I gelak gila-gila baca blog you. Gila ah Sandria nie. Heish. Okay. Make love, Don't make babies. I get you.) Sorry, don't get me wrong. You're so protective just like your mummy. Boys and men nowadays are just cannot be trusted anymore. So it is actually good to bring along your knife or whatever it is la en. We are girls, we are pretty just like what you said before, Sandria. So we really have to take care of ourselves more. Must be more protective. Okay. Hahahahahaha what the hell is wrong with me talking all those craps ? Sorry. :P Sandria still remember all those days during Prefect's Camping? Best gila doh ada korg. Seriously kita bully ramai orang. Ahhhh best gila !!!! I miss it like badlyyyyyyyyy ! huh. :D Then kita kacau dekat padang then cepat-cepat kita pergi mandi time takda orang. I isi en air untuk you sebab you lambat then you mandi sorg-sorg. Pastu kita gaduh dengan Umaira. Hahaha. Rindu gila. XD

Umaira Haifa Kamilia : Huh. Very simple girl, I love her life principles, good in calculations. Loves comics like so so so so so much, loves to learn new languages and she's good in languages too. The only thing that I really wanna know since Form 4 about her is the Mr.O. HAHAHAHAHAHHA. Sorry Maira. :P But still till now i cannot found out who is actually Mr.O. heeeeheeeeeeeee. :P Sorry auw Maira.

Fathiyah : Tyahhhhhhhhhhh. Tyahhhhhh is a very nice girl ! Very nice ! Baik gila. Huh. Very sensitive, easily to cry, caring just like a mom, very sweet, very patient and *weyh tyah, asal kau baik gila? Aku tatau bila je kau buat jahat kat sekolah. Macam tak pernah nampak. Tak padahal kawan-kawan kau ni semua nakal-nakal je kat sekolah. Setiap kali ktorg ajak kau buat benda tak baik mesti kau taknak. Ish3. Boleh jadi isteri yang bagus ni. Takpe. Bagus.* Kenyit mata sikit kat awak >.< Macam sapa budak tu? Yang kenyit mata kat kau time hujan balik sekolah. Sweet gila. eleleleyh. :*

Nadia Husna : Erghhhh too much things to talk about her. Fuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnyyyyyyyy ever. Hahahaha Nadia sangat lawak gila. Saya dengan Nadia time sekolah selalu sangat kacau Fathiyah. Hahahahahha. Best gila buat Tyah bengang. Pastu ktorg dalam class dulu selalu usha orang sebelah saya berdrama dengan fruitliver dia. Hahaha. Pastu selalu kutuk-kutuk Ahyad dengan Ruzaini sikit. Harhahaha. Tu ah sapa soh Ahyad dok sebelah Nadia. Pergh. Banyak juga ktorg cakap-cakap pasal dorg. Pastu ada one day tu idk Ahyad bgtau Khairee pasal baju Nadia koyak ke apa ntah la en, time ni selama 5years kawan ngan dia, tu la moment dia paling malu. May be sebab boys yang nampak ke apa tataula en. Huh. Nadia k la dia ni kawan yang best gila. Nadia yang selalu jadi mangsa touching saya. Bila saya touching dengan dia, saya touch tangan dia. Tangan Nadia yang comel tu juga yang selalu jadi mangsa pukulan saya. Best gila weyh pukul tangan Nadia, tidur atas dia un best gila. Nadia ni pemurah. Ahhhh dah lah. Semua kawan saya baik-baik belaka. :)

Syazana : Doraemon ! Zana macam Doraemon en? Best gila kawan dengan dia. Dia comel gila. Suka kacau dia. Hahahhaha. Dulu time assembly, mesti kacau dia time dia usha crush dia. Hakhakhak. Fuhhh bukan main marah lagi dia. Then last day of school just before after SPM, ktorg amik gambar dengan crush dia without her, bila tunjuk gambar tu, berair doh mata dia. Sorry Zana. Ktorg memang cemnie suka kacau-kacau. Especially saya, Huda ngn Aten. Ktorg kalau tak kacau kawan hidup rasa tak sempurna. Haha. K la. Dah. Penat. Daripada English terus pergi BM. Tapi takpela. Siapa je kisah en.

Note : ehhh sorry auw kalau ada tertype pape yang buat korg marah. Kalau ada bagitahu la tau, nanti saya edit ke apa. Heehee:D I love you guys so much ! :)

Question and Answer.

2012-01-29T13:32:00.003+08:00

I have a question. And the question sounds like this;
"What to do when you are missing someone?"
Haahaaa. I did google for the best answer and till now I still couldn't find the best answer for it. But I know the answer is actually come from myself. I really have to forget all those things. But it is actually the hardest thing to do now. Fuhhh. I is actually didn't miss the new him. No I am not at all. It just that I miss our old times, the old him, the old me, the old us. I really need to forget all that. Time will helps me. I know. Huhhh. There's no point of telling someone that you're missing them. No point when you know there's nothing can change about it. Seriously nothing can changes. Okay. Well that is for my case, I don't what about the others. Sorrrrryyy. Okay. I will try my best. Buhbye !

The feeling of Shame?

2012-01-28T11:36:00.007+08:00

"They say that time heals all wounds but all it's done so far is give me more time to think about how much I miss you."

Malu? Apa sebenarnya malu tu? Haha. Okay. Susah betul nak jumpa orang-orang pemalu sekarang. Bukan nak kata takda, tapi just susah nak jumpa sekarang. Okay. Bila jumpa crush kita je, mesti macam pergh malu gila pastu mesti ada rasa nervous en? Haha. Tataulah asal en, tapi tu yang saya rasa. Rasanya orang lain un sama gak kut, bila jumpa crush dia un sama je cemnie. Ye ke? Ntahlah. Haha. Okay.

Cem saya nak cakap ngan sorg ni en, errr, bila ngan dia je mesti rasa nervous gila. Haha. Ngan orang lain okay je. Dia macam even ngah makan un, boleh jadi tak lalu sebab nervous gila. So akhirnya yang jadi tengok je makanan tu. Hahaha. Tah papeje. So, sebenarnya, orang yang saya tak cakap sangat tu sanye orang yang paling saya nak cakap dengan dia. Tapi ada beberapa sebab yang menghalang. Hahah.

Iklan jap;

"Sometimes, when you give up on someone, it's not because you don't care anymore, but because you realize they don't."

Pastu ada blog sorg ni en, dia kata, kalau kita suka someone, jangan bagitahu dia, sebab nanti Allah kurang en rasa cinta kat dia. Ceyh. Doa je lah en. Doa je banyak-banyak kat Allah. PAstu time Form 5, time sekolah, Ustazah un ada kata kalau suka someone diamkan je, doa semoga dia jadi jodoh kita suatu hari nanti dan dia juga yang terbaik untuk kita. ;)

Ceyhhh sanye post kali ni bukan nak cakap pasal malu nak cakap ke jumpa dengan crush kita, tapi ni pasal perasaan malu yang kian menghilang di kalangan anak-anak muda sekarang. So sekarang saya memang jadi driver my brothers and sis tanpa bergaji. Takpela. Memang saya yang nak buat, sebab dah takda kerja sangat. Sampai semalam, saya g angkat baju kat luar un Pakcik Van kata saya ni Bibik baru. Haha. Apa lah Pakcik orang nak tolong kakak je. Pakcik Van tu sanye Pakcik Van time saya sekolah juga. Dia suka buat lawak, dia baik je oh.

Iklan balik;

"I really do just want you to be happy. But, if there's any way I could be part of that happiness, let me know."

Back to the topic. Haha. Daripada tadi tak masuk-masuk lagi. Okay. Semalam p hantar my sis p tuition. Time pergi nampak dua orang insan ni. Boyfriend ngn girlfriend la. Naik motor. I know the girl is my neighbour. Haish. Malam-malam lepak berdua-duaan kat tempat sunyi tak malu ke? Mak Ayah tak marah ke? Heish. Menyampah gila tengok orang-orang cemnie auw. Dok bawah pokok menggatal. Aduh.
K iklan balik;

"Life is weird. You go from being strangers. To being friends. To being more than friends. To being practically strangers again."

Pastu time balik, dalam 10.15a.m, haish ni lagi teruk. Waduhhh. Ada dua makhluk, nyorok-nyorok buat maksiat dalam kereta. Weyh, ni kawasan perumahan kut. Tolong ah. Dah ar kat sini malam-malam, budak-budak kecik selalu malam Jummat lepas dorg balik solat Isyak, dorg keluar main badminton ngan my brothers. So selalunya saya un join jugalah sebab dah takda pape nak buat en. Tapi silau oh main malam-malam ngan lampu jalan en.

Eh dah back to the topic. Hah. Tahu tak. Aduh. Heish. Maksiat depan mata. Saya siap boleh nampak back + butt one of the couple tula. They were kissing. Time tu rasa macam nak pergi hon kuat-kuat bagi dorg mati terkejut kena sakit jantung terkejut. Yuck. Benci gila doh. Maksiat. Nak je call JAIS, tapi takda number phone. Awak ada? Meh bagi kita jap.
Heish. Apa lah nak jadi ngan manusia sekarang. Malulah dengan Allah. Buat dosa tu. It may lead to zina. Tahu apa hukum zina? 100x sebatan bagi yang belum berkahwin dan rejam sampai mati untuk yang dah berkahwin. Wahai manusia-manusia sekalian alam. tolonglah jauhi dosa, maksiat dan zina. Saya un kena ingat en diri saya sendiri.

Kat sini ramai budak-budak kecik. Yang selalu keluar main ngan dorg, yang the eldest un saya. Hahahah. Sian en. Tapi takpela. Saya suka je main ngan budak-budak, ngan kucing. Best je rasa. Huhu. Hah. Disebabkan itu, takkan kau nak bagi budak-budak tu nampak benda tak senonoh yang kau buat? Janganlah rosakkan pemikiran mereka ya. Ingat, apa awak buat Allah nampak, malaikat kiri kanan mencatit. Fuhhh.
K habis cerita pasal nie.

K ni last iklan;

"Dear Bestfriend, please stay in my life forever because you're one of the best things to ever happen to me. Love, me."

Next . . .
Yeah sementara takda kerja, ngah cuti en sekarang, saya asik dok tengok TV gak ah sekarang ni. Huh. Tapi ni nak cite pasal satu cerita yang saya benci gila. Seriously benci yang teramat tapi kadang-kadang tertengok sebab ada manusia dalam rumah ni suka sangat tengok cite tu. Nak tahu cite apa? HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER. Benciiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii yang teramat. Saya terasa cerita tu teruk. Tak patut disiarkan langsung. Cerita tu macam $%^&. Banyak sangat pasal women, men, sex, boobs, marriage, drunk, everything yang tak elok. Benci gila. So bila ada manusia kat rumah ni yang tengok cite tu, cepat-cepat saya tutup TV tu takpun jangan harap saya nak pandang sikit un TV tu. $%^& gila.Heish. K dah. Tu jela. Bye.

"when smeone is waiting.smeone must leave.when the smeone has left,u just have to wait 4 a smeone that is better than the smeone that left u."

Lets do this !

2012-01-27T10:17:00.004+08:00

"Instead of thinking about what you’re missing, try thinking about what you have that everyone is missing."

I'll be back to normal soon. :)

2012-01-27T09:30:00.001+08:00

"I wish I could go back to the day I met you & just walk away. Because honestly, it would've saved me so much hurt & pain."
Kenapa nie ramai kata saya dah change? Orang-orang dalam rumah ni takyah cakaplah memang dorg perasan saya dah berubah. Tahlah. Taklah. Saya jadi cemnie tak lama. Nanti lama-lama saya jadilah Aisyah Aziz yang lama balik ya. Sekarang nie ada benda sikit. Dan lagi tak suka bila ada kawan yang salah sangka, cakap saya dah berubah sangatlah. Weyh. I tak change pun. Nothing okay. Okaylah. Maybe sekarang I dah jarang keluar ngan korg, jarang cakap-cakap dah, tapi I need time okay. I just want to be alone for a while. Tolonglah faham. Janganlah benda kecik boleh buat kita gaduh. Nanti I update gambar kita berdua je okay, Sandria? I miss you a lot. Seriously. Dah lama tak jumpa last sekali un was on the 22nd of December. Nanti kita hang out ramai-ramai lagi. Please no more hard feelings. Ni my cousin lak kata saya menghilang. Hahaha. Best gak bila wat cemnie, sekarang bila saya dah takda lama sikit baru nak perasan. Nanti saya mati tataulah. Baca-bacakanlah doakan saya nanti bila saya dah takda hidup kat dunia ni auw. Ikah. Kita tak menghilang un. Ada je. Ntahlah. Nak menyendiri je. Nanti-nanti dah ready, kita macam dululah balik. Jangan risau, Aisyah yang lama akan ada balik. Seriously. It just takes time lah. Kbye.

Me?

2012-01-27T09:13:00.001+08:00

"Respect people's feelings. Even if it doesn't mean anything to you, it could mean everything to them."

Don't judge me until you know the real me. Get to know me first. I'm such a complicated type of person. It can be very hard to know me because me myself I don't even know the real me. Hahahaha. Ceyhhh. But seriously, sometimes I just don't know what I really wanna especially when it comes into heart problems. Hahaha. But, once you've enter my life, you will be found out it can be very hard to get out from my life unless you didn't mean to stay longer in my life. Well, I really meant it babe. Because . . . No need to know la. Kbye. :)

Comic

2012-01-26T21:42:00.006+08:00

"Life is about trusting our feelings, taking chances, finding happiness, appreciating the memories, and learning from the past."

Huh. Okay. Sanye comic ni saya nak bagi someone. This is the best comic ever I've ever read. Seriously. Tapi, saya hancurkan jadi cemnie sebab someone. Ada sebab kenapa saya nak bagi comic ni tu someone. Okaylah. Sebenarnya sebab character dalam comic ni, Yutaka cem hampir sama dengan someone nie. Let say someone ni HD.

1) Yutaka ni, suka texting dengan girlfriend dia. Yeah. HD ni dulu un suka texting ngan girlfriend dia. Tapi tataulah girlfriend dia tu sapa. And future girlfriend dia siapa un saya nanti taknak tahu. Lebih baik takyah tahu daripada cut yang tengah nak drying ni bleed balik en.

2) Yutaka ni suka gila makan. Haha. HD ni kuat gila makan. Kadang-kadang saya rasa cem dia ni “WOW”. Awak ni human ke x, HD? Tahlah. Hahaha. Tapi dia ni handsome je. Harha.

3) Yutaka ni cepat jealous bila tengok girlfriend dia, Kinoshita dengan lelaki lain. Okay. HD ni un kuat jealous. Tapi, dulu saya tahu dia jealous sebab he loves me. Tapi, sanye benda yang dia jealous dulu ntah ah rasa tak patut kut sebab memang takda pape. And HD kalau dah jealous dia lain oh, sebiji macam Yutaka. Tapi ni semua dulu and that’s what makes me love him even more. Sekarang ni, biar saya sorg je tahu apa saya rasa kat dia. Wahhh J

4) Yutaka cepat gila tertidur. Hahaha. See, sebijik gila dengan HD juga. Daripada saya kenal dia, 2010, mula-mula kenal dulu dia memang suka tertidur. Penat je tunggu dia oh. Kadang-kadang marah dia un sebab dia suka sangat tertidur. Sampai dah 2011 kurang sikit sakit tertidur dia nie, and saya plak terberjangkit ngan dia. Then 2012 two times dia tertidur, the last time was on the 9^th of January. I know tu last sekali dia akan tertidur because of me, sebab lepas ni dah takkan ada dah. Hahaha. HD kata kalau dia tertidur tu salahkan diri saya sendiri sebab . . . tunjuk my tummy dekat dia. Alololo. Hahaha. Tah papeje. Pastu dia kata kalau dia tertidur tu maknanya saya dah berjasa besar terhadap diri dia. Suka sangat buat lawak dia nie. Tapi ni semua tinggal kenangan je
5) Hah. Girlfriend Yutaka ni risau gila bila Yutaka ni sakit. Hahahaha. Lebih kurang saya la kut? Ceyh perasan gila. Tapi bila HD tu demam ke apa agak risaulah juga. Dululah. Sekarang biarjelah kalau dia nak selsema un sebab dia ni allergy gila dekat habuk. Pergh. Sian awak en yg.

To HD : haha ni un kalau awak baca. So ni la sebab nape orang nak bagi awak comic ni. I'll always love you my friend and I'll be missing you, HD. Buhbye. :)
"I can't promise you a perfect relationship without arguments & differences. However I can promise you as long as you're trying, I'm staying"

Graduation Day 2011

2012-01-24T10:11:00.001+08:00

Comel

2012-01-23T20:17:00.000+08:00

Nama kucing ni COMEL !
Dia sangat Comel !

Holiday Dec 2011

2012-01-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

School Memories

2012-01-23T16:19:00.002+08:00

Semangat study Sejarah en time nie? Harhaha. Dua-dua otak sejarah. Saya je yang tak.

Nadia punya kerja. Dia memang. And dalam kasut tu ada ring. Harhaha.

Nadia was proposing Huda. Kahwin nanti jangan lupa ajak ya. Lol. :D

Oh nga study Physics kut time nie. hehe :D

Peaceeeeeee :)

Ceyhhh perasan je syah nie. Lololol :P

Syah ngan Hudangggggg. Muahhh.

Kakak Bandung ktorg. Harha. Ktorg p minta maaf kat kakak ni sebab selalu membebel time beli Mee Bandung kat dia. Kahkahkah. Rindu gila kat Bandung kat kantin. Haih. Nantilah nak pergi lagi. :P

Ce teka tu siapa? Twin kan? Ke cermin? Ntahlah. Ce fikir leklok. hehehe :P

Gambar nie. Fuh. Susah nak explain. hahah. Disebabkan gambar ni ada orang terhiris-hiris jantung dan hatinya. Aduh. Dah tahu ktorg memang berani buat benda-benda cemnie, sabar jela ea ngan ktorg, Doraemon.

Walaupun kita orang selalu gaduh, memang all the time nak gaduh wat lawak bodoh je, tapi still bestfriend. Harha. Dah jodoh daripada Form1 nak buat cemana en. harhaha. :P

Vivenish cuak terus bila nampak Thiyah nangis sampai angkat-angkat tangan cem taknak kena tembak. Apa pun time ni V tengah minta maaf kat Thiyah sampai Thiyah terharu. Aduhhhh. Sweetnya. Kan bagus kalau time tu un ada orang sudi nak cakap dengan saya, haih tapi xpela en. Ni time susun meja untuk SPM ngn time minta maaf ngan time main nangeh-nangeh ngan kawan-kawan ngan cikgu-cikgu sekali. Hehe :D

Sir Harris tengah nikahkan Datuk K. Alhamdulillah. Semua selamat. Jangan risau. :)

Sorang gembira, sorang nangeh ni apahal? huhhhh.

Hehehehe :) Ktorg memang sweet. Harhahah takdelah. heheh. :)

Don't keep it alone :)

2012-01-22T20:46:00.002+08:00

If there's something hurts you, by someone that you love, just let them know. Tell them the truth. Even though you know you don't have the rights to hurt anymore or you know that the someone won't care as much as you care, just tell them the truth. Don't keep it by yourself. Please don't. Because you will get hurt even more than before. By telling them the truth, they might be changing the things to be better, or they will slowly leave what hurt you. Well, maybe . I don't know. It depends on someone and something. I felt that before. Because by keeping the things in your heart, I found out it will only grow even more in my heart. So I know it is actually not good for me. Seriously. So for now, I just won't care who you are, whoever, if something that is hurts me and it is actually came from you, I will just let you know and I will always tell you the truth. I just don't want to keep it all alone. Thanks. :)

Ways.

2012-01-22T18:21:00.008+08:00

"I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby.
But you're still with me in my dreams.
And tonight, it's only you and me."

Alhamdullilah. Almost two weeks plus I've been through my bad days. Siapa-siapa yang rasa korg patah hati, sakit dalam jiwa semua ni, memang benda ni sakit dan perit. Tapi ada cara nak bagi ubat benda ni. Dekatkanlah diri awak dengan Allah. Mohonlah keampunan daripada Allah. Berzikir, baca Al-Quran, baca buku-buku motivasi, buku-buku Islam, La Tahzan, bacalah. Daripada buku-buku tu awak akan dapat semangat baru dan sikit-sikit awak boleh lupakan masalah sakit dalam hati awak tu. Lagi satu, memang masa kita tidak diuji pun kita kena dekatkan diri dengan Allah, apatah lagi masa kita dalam kesedihan. Menangislah awak bersungguh-sungguh dengan Allah. Takyahlah nak malu-malu ke apa, sebab Allah je tahu apa yang kita rasa, apa yang kita minta. Tak rugi. Seriously. Lepas tu awak akan rasa tenang. Alhamdulillah. Thanks Allah sebab sikit-sikit sekarang saya dah mula rasa tenang hati dan jiwa ni. Terimah kasih sebab uji saya, mungkin sebelum ini Aisyah terlupa akan nikmat yang diberikan olehMu, tapi sekarang alhamdulillah. Tiada perkataan yang terungkap bagi mengatakan tanda terima kasih atas semua ini. Setiap kesulitan, pasti ada kebahagian di kemudian hari. Percayalah. Apa yang terjadi tu biarkannya ia berlalu. Apa-apa pun, inshaAllah saya tengah cuba nak berubah menjadi insan yang lebih baik daripada hari semalam. Boleh punya. Awak pun boleh. Kita mesti kuat nak hadapi semua dugaan tak kira apa pun yang dah terjadi dan yang bakal terjadi. Sebab Allah takkan uji hamba-Nya melebihi tahap kemampuannya. Wahhh. Cukuplah setakat ini. Okay. Chill. :) Smiles always.

Hi !

2012-01-22T13:34:00.001+08:00

I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH ! :D

=)

2011-01-15T13:00:00.002+08:00

Friends are there

when your bestfriends aren't.

T.I.R.E.D.

2011-01-14T22:58:00.002+08:00

Okay. Today is Friday. Here it comes the weekend. Just finished my add math class. Was okay. And yeah done with my second week of school. What so tiring man and have lots of homeworks to be done in this weekend. No one can disturb my Sunday. Ayah, please don't force me to follow you. Please. Please. I'm begging. I've lots lots lots of works to finish by this weekend. Ahhhhh. But. I know. Next week gonna be more tiring than this week. The SPM extra classes will be started on next Tuesday. Wthaaah. Straight from Tuesday until Thursday. And basically, we'll finish at 2.05.p.m and at 3p.m I've co-curiculum. What the hell man. WHAT THE HELL! CRAP! Shit ! Eurw. Okay. Patient, syh. You need to sacrifice a lot this year ! For your own good, babe. :) Okay. I'm done. See yaaaaaaaa ! :)

Swimming. Night.

2010-12-09T11:28:00.001+08:00

P!

2010-12-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

I just came back from the swimming pool.

Tired.

Had dinner.

Damn.

I HATE THE PIMPLES dude !

Go away two sweet pimples !

I 'love' you !

Please.

Go away ASAP.

I 'LOVE' you, sayang ! :/

JB

2010-12-08T10:52:00.002+08:00

HI ! Currently I'm in JB. It's kinda boring here. The hotel is okay. The Zon Regency Hotel. What to do mannnnnnnn ! I'm bored ! :)

Wed. 1st Dec

2010-12-05T21:33:00.009+08:00

Hi. Hello. Good Night. ;) Okay. Basically, last Wednesday, ayah, the brothers and sisters, and my maid were not in Shah Alam. So, just left my mom and I at home. The day was so bored without any of them to fight and for sure no one will touch the PS2. I'm glad that at last the playstation can have rest after working 24/7 hours for my brothers and sister. hehe. Since I've nothing to do that day, I forced myself to follow my mom. Lol. Actually, I'm not the one who forced myself to follow my mom, but it's my mom who the one forced myself to follow her. Around 12p.m we went out somewhere to find something. Whattthaaaaaaa really hot day mann. I really can't stand with the hotness. whathha whathaaa. Can't wait to go home and switch on the aircond. Then, arrived home at 2p.m. Take my bath. Pray. I'd no plan for the evening. After thinking thinking and thinking, the only thing in my mind was having a good lunch, alone without anyone can disturb my foods. LOL. hehe ;) Okayyyy. Then I went to MPH. Bought a book. Dear John. wow. The book is so damn good. I just love it. In my plan, I wanna read it on my way to ..... next week. But. The book was so amazing and I just can't stop myself from reading the book by the time I get bored. huhu. Finished reading the book only for three days and I'm glad. :) I'm gonna read the book again. Yeah yeah yeah. Talk to you soon. syhzz. ;) Take care.

Mr.G

2010-12-05T20:47:00.001+08:00

OUCHHHHH ! :)

It's time to change.

2010-11-24T18:18:00.004+08:00

It's time to change ! I really wanna make my dreams happen in reality ! Lets make a change starting from tomorrow ! Yeah ! Yeah ! Yeah ! Lets make a move ! Spm ! Yeah ! Yeah ! Everyone can do it babe ! Believe in yourself ! Yes ! Syh can do it ! Study ! Study ! Lets forget the words 'BORED', 'SLEEPY', 'IT'S STILL EARLY TO STUDY', 'HAVE NO MOOD TO STUDY'. Okay. Agree with me? Come on peoples !

Aww !

2010-11-23T00:52:00.001+08:00

CUTE ! :)

B.O.R.E.D.

2010-11-23T00:39:00.003+08:00

Can anyone remember love?

It's like trying to summon up the smell of roses in a cellar.

You might see a rose, but never the perfume.

WTF. I'm freaking damn hating this word! 'BORED'. I'm pretty damn bored during this school holidays. Can't wait to go out from the city and have a nice family vacation. December please come as soon as you can okay sayang. Huh. What else to be said? wth. I'm bored but at the same time I don't wanna go out somewhere, hanging out with friends or maybe having a sleepover at my cousin's place. Seriously, I don't know where the hell is my good mood has been missing. I wish my study mood will come soon. Yeah. I'm sitting for SPM next year and wanna get a good results to achieve my ambition. Ambition ? Wow. Syh. You still haven't decided what you want to be after this. Come on syh. Think carefully. It's your own future. Well. Doctor has been rejected since last year. No more doctor in my ambitions list ! haha. Then, what ?! Huh. Lets think about it some other times. Basically, I just need a regular exercises. Maybe jogging, skipping, swimming, badminton, tennis or fighting with my brothers and sister. haha. Fighting will use a lot of energy as everyone knows. Am I right? Well. I know I'm right. I'm used to it not so long ago. Since I'm 16, I just wanna be a matured sister. Wallla. Syh is so cool innit? Harhar. I repeat yeah ! A MATURED SISTER ! haha. wth syh. LOL. Usually, what you'll do after fighting? Cry? Sleep? or EAT?! Muaha. I'll choose eat ! Of course. Aammmmmahhhhh the monster babe ! Harhhha. There's nothing to be said anymore and I guess I should say goodbye and GOODNIGHT babies. Have a nice sleep ! Sweet dreams ! Lots of love, syhzz. :)

mood

2010-11-23T00:13:00.002+08:00

I hate those moods where I get all sad and feel like crying but I don’t know what’s wrong.

Fatty !

2010-11-20T23:17:00.003+08:00

I ate too much today ! Opsss. Not for today only, but the whole week. hehe.

I'm FATTTTTTTTTTTT.

FATTTYYYYYYY DA BOOMM BOOOOOOOMMMMMM !

;'(

2010-11-19T09:46:00.002+08:00

Basically, I miss thes place called Hinde House very much. Hehe. So, last night I gotta a sweet dream. My friends were there (dream). Hihi :) Leyla, Safiyya, Aishah, Callum, Rebecca, Raychel, Alex, Ava, Cloe, Christine, Daisy, Danial, Elliot, Harley, Imogen, Jamie and others. I miss them badly. They've finished their SCHOOL WORLD and went to college. How awesome is that. I miss them. I miss them. I miss them. I miss Leyla !!! ;'( Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Wanna badly continue my studies in UK. May I? Huhh. Study hard, syh ! Yeahhhhhhhh ! bbye. take care. syhzz.

8 Letters, 3 Words, 1 Meaning.

2010-11-16T13:49:00.002+08:00

I don't know what the hell is wrong with my mood. Since last Wednesday. Heck. I'm always in a bad mood, didn't enjoy too much with my friends, always feels sad, feels like I don't have life anymore and everything that is negative. But. I wonder why?! Why?! Will find the answer soon. But. Is it because of her? or him? or both of them? I don't know. That day. The guy asked me. I can't really remember what he text. But. 'What's wrong with you? Did you miss something or someone? Be honest. Not to me, but to yourself.' And I answered him, 'To be honest, I miss someone.' Then bla bla bla. I didn't miss some other else. BUT. I miss the old you ! Can't you get what I meant? I miss the old you ! It looks like you have forgotten all about us. Is it? The answer is with you. Please don't get me wrong. I just miss all the sweet moments that we had not so long ago.

8 Letters, 3 Words, 1 Meaning.

I Miss You

Thiyah :)

2010-11-16T11:52:00.001+08:00

Gonna miss her laugh a lot.

ELS'S HI-TEA

2010-11-14T19:07:00.001+08:00

We missing Nadia.

1.2.3.4.5

2010-11-11T12:34:00.001+08:00

Snow

2010-11-11T10:30:00.001+08:00

Kids.

2010-11-11T10:24:00.001+08:00

S.O.R.R.Y

2010-11-11T09:31:00.002+08:00

Yesterday kan orang ada post pasal budak ni. Eh. Man. Sorry gila gila sorry auw. Fuh tak sangka lak dia nak terbaca ke apa ke kan. Even tough dah banyak kali say sorry kat dia, rasa bersalah gila kut. Sorry auw weyhhhhhhhh. Sorry. :) and thanks for last night. Harap-harap kita punya kawan tu change la. Eh. Thanks and Sorry!!! :)

True Friends

2010-11-11T09:26:00.002+08:00

No matter what happens in life,

true friends will always be by your side.

Syrup

2010-11-09T15:22:00.003+08:00

'Thanks Aisyah for the cold air-cond and the sugarless drinks and the toasted bread with a black hole in the middle and the blanket, pillows, the loud laughs and the laptop.'

'The syrup that Aisyah made was tasteless.. Yeah, it's normal for the cooking beginner..'

HAHAHA .AWWW.HAHAHA.

Monster

2010-11-09T15:20:00.002+08:00

The MONSTER is back !

Me ! Me ! Me !

I ate a lot today with Sandieeeeee.

I like these.

2010-11-08T21:18:00.005+08:00

If you can't get someone out of your head, maybe they're meant to be there
Now I believe it when people say love is blind... 'cause I must have been blind to love a person like you.
Our whole relationship is one big inside joke that no one will understand but you and me.
A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.
Anyone can make you smile, but not everyone can make you happy.
She loves him more than he'll ever know. He loves her more than he'll ever show.
I miss you and I don't know how else to tell you, I just want my best friend back.

Source : Twitter ( LoveQuotesx )

SX18

2010-11-08T21:06:00.002+08:00

UNBELIEVABLE ! For the first time I 'ter'watched SX18 scene on the movie with my girls. Gosh. It was so embarrassing and shittttttt so damn. Ohhhh. Gonna have a dobuble shit hot story with Fathiyah tomorrow at school. Wowooowowow. SX18 scene. LOLOLOLOLOL. Shit. Disgusting. DON'T TRY AT HOME WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND, okay. Yes. DON'T EVER TRY.

P.S : sorry for using bad words. But yes, it's me, syh and using bad words is normal. LOL :P

Status

2010-11-08T20:38:00.008+08:00

It's all about X and Y relationship status on Facebook. At last, they've changed the status. Awww. Cute. Great. Congrats to both of you. So, UHK said, they're so brave ! You know when you changed the relationship status and the whole world, on the net, will KNOW about it. hehe. Then, if I had one, I'll never change my relationship status on my status and MAYBE I won't tell you guys too. WOW. This is what UHK said. and I've to agree with her. No one knows about I'm having relationship with who except for my bestie. Okayyyyy. I'll never tell you guys. Yeah. Yeah. and the person is not ***. He's my bestie, not boyfriend. Kkkk. That is it. I love muh hunny. Bye. Take care.

Movie :)

2010-11-08T18:32:00.001+08:00

Had an awesome evening with my girls again today !

Mine

2010-11-07T21:30:00.002+08:00

I still have a box of Enid Blyton investigation novels, English classic novels and comics.

Bestie

2010-11-07T11:41:00.005+08:00

Aten. My bestie. not EVERYONE KNOW THAT. Yesterday, at last I told her my big secret. I need someone to share and give opinion. So just like what I aspect, she was so surprised ! 'OMG SYH ! This is so freaking damn huge news! I was like WHAT?!! What can I say is WOW.' You must be so surprised with that. Btwy. I just wanna say thanks for the support, advices and everything. I trust you just like you trust me. Huhhh. Muahhh. xoxo. syhzz.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

2010-11-07T11:34:00.002+08:00

I'm trying my best to make you happy and always make you smiles.

Look. How happy my brothers with their friends.

Being best friend are the best way for us. yeah.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Comics and Novels

2010-11-07T07:45:00.001+08:00

BOOOOOOOO YAHHHHHHHH ! Yes. I'm glad that UHK has addicted to teens novels. Yeah. Yeah. At last. and now I'm addicted to COMICS. I borrowed Huda's comics. From my opinion, by reading comics will make you laughhhhhhhhhhhhh and forget everything that may bother you. I'm not joking. Comics are cool. UHK. Yeah. Good. Good. I'm gonna post a picture of my novels. I've some of it. I read both. Malay and English novels. They're so interesting. Awesome. For those who haven't read IMPIANA 1 and 2 YET, do read it. It'a awesome. HORROR. Written by AINMAISARAH. The top author. I've met her once. She's so damn cute with her cutie voice. Lol. Yeah. and IMPIANA 3 and 4 are coming out. SOON. SOON. Can't wait to get it. IMPIANA 4 will be the last chapter for this series. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Can't wait. Kkkk. till the next post,syhzz.

Friends

2010-11-06T17:23:00.004+08:00

The friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you.

~Elbert Hubbard, The Notebook, 1927.

Baby Boy aka Jimmy

2010-11-06T17:12:00.001+08:00

Hari Raya

2010-11-05T23:09:00.002+08:00

I miss HARI RAYA.

Don't you miss Hari Raya too?

:)

2010-11-05T23:02:00.001+08:00

Liking someone doesn't mean you have to be lovers,

sometimes you just have to be friends.

P.S : and I'm glad to have you as my best boyfriend, babe. :)

Wales

2010-11-05T22:59:00.001+08:00

Bret

2010-11-05T22:57:00.001+08:00

Winter

2010-11-05T22:53:00.001+08:00

I MISS THIS BADLY

Justin, Ketot and Boboy.

2010-11-04T09:32:00.004+08:00

Hiiii ! Do you still remember my Justin?!

Yeahhhhhhhhhhh. My cutie baby boy.

Just like always, I didn't 'talk' too much on my blog.

I'm more to picturesssss okayyyyyy.

Justin loveeee to play with my running shoes.

Catching something black and small but didn't move.

Baby boy and Uncle fighting ! Justin always be the winner !

SEE ! My cats are so naughty just like five of us ! LOL.

Uncle nak 'belasah' baby boy.

and NOW it's time to baby 'belasah' uncle balik.

Girls

2010-11-03T20:19:00.001+08:00

I enjoyed my day with my girls.

UHK, Alessandria and NHE.

A

2010-10-16T21:31:00.001+08:00

A.W.A.Y

Bestie;

2010-10-10T07:06:00.006+08:00

"A real friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

To my bestie :

I'm so sorry. I was too shocked with your 'special' text yesterday. The text just spoilt my mood. Seriously. It's not because I've forgot you cause I've someone to text, someone that can makes me smile, and I forgot my own bestie. It's totally WRONG. I never forget about you, hunny. You know how much important my bestie to my life, isn't? Huh. And thanks for sharing your problems with me. Just tell anything that you want to share with me. I'll keep all the problems as our big secrets. That's my promise. One more thing, it's not because I don't want to reply all your texts back, I'm running out of credit. RM 0.00 ehehe. Muflis and I don't want to top-up till my final has finish. Alolo. Not sure yet about this. Who knows. Emergency can happen at anytime isn't. So my advice here is try to be patient. God is testing you just like the others. No one will lives easily in this world without being tests by God. Be patient, try your best to get best result in our final, and I'm so sorry for making up scandal you and *******. I'm so sorry. Chill okay. Lots of love, syhzz.

"Friendship is one mind in two bodies."

Dilemma

2010-10-10T06:51:00.008+08:00

Hell-O. Good Morning and Happy Sunday. Hehe. Final exam is just around the corner and I still not ready yet to face the 'big' war. Nahhhhhh. Stop talking about final. eheh. Straight to the point kayy, syh. okay. I guess I'm in a 'small' dilemma. Lmfao. Hell yeah, But the truth is, there are something that keep bothering my mind. The feeling has came back ! But, why now? Why don't you come earlier? Why? Why? Tell me why ! Huh. It's about him. Yes. Him.

Can you really unlove someone that you've loved once with all your heart?

Miss Blogging

2010-10-09T15:24:00.004+08:00

Hiya! I'm back ! Lol. I miss blogging so much. Seriously. I do miss blogging.

I wonder why I can't change my font's colour. I want it to be blue or red or some other colours. Oh my gosh. Can someone help me to solve my problem? Please. Till the next post, syh.

:)

2010-09-21T16:37:00.008+08:00

HELL-O

Eid

2010-09-08T21:06:00.004+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

Syh nak minta maaf dekat semua orang. Tak kisahlah kenal ke tidak. Mungkin dengan sengaja atau tidak sengaja, mungkin ada terkata, terkutuk atau mengumpat ke. Minta maaf sangat-sangat. Raya jemput datang rumah. Cehhh. Duit raya tengok umur dan berapa kali dah datang ya. Muahaha. Till here, syhzz.

Cousins :)

2010-09-05T06:38:00.001+08:00

Hey ! Okay ! It's Sunday already today. Another four days then we'll left Ramadhan. Sad isn't? Then here Syawal comes. InsyaAllah, I'll be in Malacca for this raya. Can't wait to meet my cousins. Huhu. Ika, Ammar, Hasyir, Alina, Haris, Hairi, Hanis and others, can't wait to meet ya. I miss them so much. What are we gonna do yeah? Well, usually, when all the cousins are there, we'll plan something interesting. Haha. XD Oh yeah. Please take care of yourself. Don't ever try to touch or see or PLAY with firecrackers. Think about it okay ! Do you want to celebrate Hari Raya without your fingers? without your eyes? or without YOUR LIFE? means, you're not alive anymore. So, PLEASE ! Watch out. Am gonna stop here. See you soon. Lots of love, syhzz. :)

Before Hari Raya Hols

2010-09-04T20:56:00.008+08:00

Seaweed

2010-09-01T21:47:00.008+08:00

Everyone is looking for SEAWEED.

For our Biology's experiment tomorrow.

Duh. Where can we find it? Any idea? DRAIN? lmfao. :)

31st of August

2010-08-31T13:32:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY, MALAYSIANS ! ♥

WHEREVER YOU'RE, BE PROUD TO BE MALAYSIAN. ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UMMI

2010-08-30T10:31:00.001+08:00

Oslo, NORWAY.

2010-08-30T10:15:00.003+08:00

Who? Who? Who?

Is there anyone from Oslo?

May I know you?
Feel free to leave comment on this post

if you're from Oslo.

I just wanna know who are you.

Thanks.

Werido

2010-08-30T10:07:00.002+08:00

Why do I suddenly have this weird feeling towards them?

The truth is

2010-08-28T23:19:00.001+08:00

There's always a little truth behind every "just kidding".

A little knowledge behind every "I don't know".

A little emotion behind every "I don't care".

A little pain behind every "it's okay".

Ships

2010-08-27T14:31:00.005+08:00

There are big ships and small ships but

the best ships are friendships.

Choc

2010-08-27T13:46:00.001+08:00

I wanna talk about Prefect's Chocolate Dedication. We had 1st and 2nd batch. Believe it or not, I got 20 orders for my first batch. Haha. *Poyo* Thanks to everyone who had ordered with me.

Fatin, Man, Raihan, Syhzz, Vivaniswaran, Mahirah, Hapipah, Amir, Adi and Naszirol. Hekhekhek. :) But for the second batch, only Izzati and Nina. :) It's okay I'm still glad to have you guys. Lmfao. Btwy, thanks Mr. α for the sweet choc. I like it, bbbb. HAHA. Not too forget Nadia and Acik too. Thank you so much. *****, at last I know who is Mr. α and UNKNOWN. Hahaha. :P

Syurgamu Ramadhan

2010-08-27T10:24:00.013+08:00

Hey ! Morning. Okay. Last night I watched 'Syurgamu Ramadhan' for the first time through TV3 online. I won't be able to watch it on tele because mom won't allowed us to switch on the tele on a night but this is only for weekdays only, weekend will be okay. The drama is very nice for me. I cried while watching the drama. I cried badly. I'm not joking but that is the truth. I cried in middle of night. Lmfao. Just because of the drama. It's too sad and it seem to be like I am the one who lost my parents. You guys should watch it especially for episode 7, episode 8 and episode 9. Haha. I've watched episode 6, 7, 8 and 9 ! Yeahhhhh. :) Okay till here, syhzz.

"marah tanda sayang, benci tanda rindu"

Auww

2010-08-27T02:13:00.001+08:00

"marah tanda sayang, benci tanda rindu"

♥

Khemah

2010-08-27T01:49:00.001+08:00

See ! I'm freaking darn bored. Its 1.50 a.m edi and I still haven't in my 'khemah' yet. And do you know why I'm still awake at this time? haha. Because... Just after magrib, I fall asleep. I'm too darn tired. Didn't get any sleep in the evening. Not even for five mins. Then I woke up at 10p.m. Went down, straight to the kitchen, had a cup of hot chocolate. Then, at 11.20p.m, had my bath for the forth times today. Haha. Too hot isn't. and blah blah blah. herherher. :)

Norborough Road

2010-08-27T01:44:00.001+08:00

Misssssssssssssssssssssssssinggggggggggg.

♥

Bbbb :)

2010-08-27T01:34:00.001+08:00

Baby, baby, baby ohhh
Like baby, baby, baby noo
Like baby, baby, baby ohh
I thought youd always be mine mine.

♥

2 weeks to go. :)

2010-08-27T01:25:00.001+08:00

Another 2 weeks till Hari Raya. Are you guys excited for it? Buttttt. I'm gonna miss Ramadhan so much.

♥

Hols :)

2010-08-27T01:21:00.001+08:00

Yayyyy. I wanna update my blog. Harhar. Okay. First of all, no school for tomorrow till next Tuesday. What so heaven isn't. What to do for the five days of hols eh? What in my mind are sleep, study, fasting, shopping. That is it. Err. Seriously, I really wanna update my blog but I'm fucking don't know what to say. Any idea?! Ergh. What a waste. Hmm. Had nothing to be said, I'll stop till here then. Lots of love, syhzz. :)

Cute !

2010-08-22T08:00:00.003+08:00

I'm just wondering why UHK can't stop telling that Wan and K-ree are so cute together. Lmao. Yeah and I've to admit they're so darn cute together. So, Wan and K-ree don't get too much pressure on this nice and sweet word,

♥CUTE.♥

Limo

2010-08-22T07:43:00.001+08:00

I just wanna drop by and tell something which is so sad. Really sad. My sister, Limo has dead yesterday. By an accident. I don't know who the hell hit Limo. Aideed belled my house at 5.40 a.m. I feel so weirdo, who wanna come to my house early in the morning?! Huhhh... Then, my brother opened the door and suddenly I heard, 'Ada kucinggggg mati !'. At this time, I was in my bed to continue my sleep. I was so surprised and SHOUT OUT LOUD! 'Whhhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaattttttt? Sapa?'. Straight to the downstairs, went out, and started to cry when I saw a sweet white cat in middle of road. ;( and now I only have 3 cats left. Poor Justin, no mom to be kissed everyday, no milk for every hours. And for us, no more our genius cat. I'm so sad especially when I see Justin, living without its mom. Too sad.

PS : Limo, syh sayang sangat dekat Limo. One day kita jumpa, kita cakap, kita makan, kita main, kita tidur macam selalu kita buat lepas syh balik dari school okay. Semua orang sedih atas pemergian mo. Kita orang rindu dekat mo yang pandai serba-serbi. Pendek kata, syh dah tak dapat nak tidur dengan mo bila balik dari school. Dah tak dapat nak jentik telinga mo. Mo pergi jumpa anak-anak mo okay. Justin biar kita orang yang jaga. Syh rindu mo sangat-sangat. Mo, baru satu hari mo pergi, syh dah mimpi mo. Dalam mimpi syh, mo manja sangat, mo taknak pergi dari syh. Mo, syh minta maaf sebab selalu kacau mo, cakap mo ni ibu tak bertanggungjawaba tapi syh tau, mo bukannya boleh baca pun benda ni. Tapi takpe, ummi kata, nanti dekat akhirat, kita boleh jumpa dengan kucing-kucing kita yang dah mati. Ummi ada kata lagi, haiwan yang dah mati, tinggal dekat syurga, dekat zoo. Semua haiwan. Seronoknya mo. Lots of love, syhzz.

Bestieeeeee :)

2010-08-15T07:23:00.000+08:00

We all know that Nokia love Connecting People. But do you agree if Facebook, helps you connect and share with the people in your life? I’m agreed with that. Through Facebook, I can connect back with my ex-school mates. Yesssss ! The whole world knows about Facebook isn’t? I found my ‘idiot’ friends back, I still can contact my Sheffield’s friends and others. I’m so glad to know that my friends still remember me even tough we haven’t meet for about four years ?!! It’s four years hunny ! Not four days, four weeks, or even four months. Buttttt, four years. I’m a big liar if I say I don’t miss them. I miss them badly especially for those who love bullying me. I miss the ‘SWEET MOMENTS’ between us. You guys love to make me cry cry and cry. For me, being Year 6 student is so darn shit. But not shit as SPM isn’t? Yeahhh. Errr. Any idea when we can meet again, guyssssssss? I miss you guys badly. BADLY. I just met Muiz okay. ONLY MUIZ. I wanna meet my Haizelnutttttttttt and Satay Bakar. Lol. Jahat gila my Haizelnut bagi nick name dekat Ju, Satay Bakar. Jahat gila you. Satay Bakar is no longer in Shah Alam. She has moved to JB. What so sad. Oh yeah. I added Farhan as well. LMAO. What so funny to have conference with Standard 3 besties. J Hope,we’ll one day okayyyyyy, sayanggg. Haha. Till here, syhzz.